uggghh

ok so remember when i said i make my dating life way more complicated than i should?? ha well its the truth.. let me give you an insight to what i mean... i have been dating this guy since begining of december but it was never serious i guess you could say.. well we talked every day atleast three times a day and i saw him at least once a week but we both never wanted to be serious yet cause of our last relationships welll.... 10 months later i wanted to be together with him but he said he could commit cause he still wasnt over his ex.. AWESOME!! i put all this time and energy into it and it got me no where and it hurt really bad cause i fell hard and like him alot. so i just backed off and started dating someone else a little.. well it turns out ha that i really like him and he wanted me to be his girlfriend but i said no... WHY? because i am a retard and i am still not over the first guy!! ugh so complicated and that is jsut a summary of it all not even the whole thing. complicated i know right? so what do i do?? oh ps there is a big difference in age between the two guys ugh see i make it so much harder!!